Archive for March, 2010

From Beyond…

I am working on thinking beyond this existence…

It allows you to put things into perspective… ever notice that people about to die have this seemingly strange calm about them… all of us who r not dying are freaking out about everything and these people literally about to die are calm and clear? My mother described this exact scenario to me when her mother died… She was suffering badly and painfully from cancer, then just as she was about to die, she experienced this calm… What must that experience be to create calm @ the least calm moment of your life??

How can that be?… See More

It is a difference of thought

So trying to harness that now would be a goal of mine… possibly one of yours???


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Sorry for the delay on the web server project updates.. I have been caught up in issues @ work lately. I should be working more on this, this week for sure.

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Stan “The Man’ Gooch?

I just finished reading a very interesting book by Stan Gooch.. ya I never heard of him either, but what a great mind indeed.  As always it really got me thinking outside of the box, and I even sought out more of his out of print books which should be here next week sometime… Anyway, I really wanted to just document some of my thoughts on what I read.  I think this will be pretty much all over the place but it is really for me anyway…

A main concept was the possibility of the cerebellum being a equally evolved second brain that actually had a major battle with the cerebrum @ some point in our evolution.  It is the basis for all unconscious thought as it is theorized to be a brain of its own struggling to gain control of the first person consciousness.  It is the ‘datacenter’ of our existence, storing every interaction and experience we have in conscious life.  I think there definitely could be something to this so I bought two more of Stan’s books and will report on the entire subject matter once I have finished them. Wow… is there an echo in here?

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Hell on Earth

Just a quick thought for this morning, that was inspired by the movie The Box… What if our conscious lives here on Earth really were the physical manifestation of Hell… ?  You can draw your own conclusions here… I just thought although the topic is nothing new, the writers presented the concept in a new, interesting and startlingly realistic way… aside from all of the Alien undertones that is… So running with this premise, would this make you strive to be a better or worse person?

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You Be The Judge…

So maybe I have not revealed this yet, but I am WAY out there.. Just ask my wife and well… basically anyone who knows me… 🙂  A while back I came up with this theory, while journeying toward God,  that you must accept anything as a possibility to even begin to approach the unanswerable questions we all have.  The problem in general is the unknown condition being present at least as a mental block.  Therefore I adopted the mantra “Anything is Possible” in it’s most literal sense.  This perspective accounts for the unknown condition while at the same time allows acceptance of any point of view without bias.  So before I lose everyone reading, I will get to the point.  I am as much a dreamer as I am a skeptic… Ya have fun with that one… So I can ‘concoct’ some pretty interesting ideas, but I also must test them for validity… all the while keeping my mantra about me. So in doing just that, I decided that if I were able to heal myself in the known way, like with a cut or a scratch, why wouldn’t I also be able to heal every other part of me?  Our bodies clearly have the ‘techology’ to facilitate this presently, are we sure that it is limited to that which we know? Interesting… at least I thought so, enough so to carry out a real test.  A bit of background, I was born with a Congenital Heart Defect, VSD (a hole between the ventricles of the heart) as well as a bi-cuspid Aortic Valve and Mitral Valve Regurgitation/Prolapse (the valve leaks backward to varying degrees causing the heart to have to work harder to compensate for its inefficiency).  I had open heart surgery when I was 3 to make the available repairs.  I have been told all my life that I would need to have the leaky valve replaced @ some point in my life and have thus been on watch, annually with EKG’s and ECHO’s (?) to monitor the leak(s) in the valve and the integrity of the patch (for the VSD).  Incidentally your valves are supposed to have 3 leaflets not 2, like mine.  So back to my test… for as long as I can remember, or at least remember being told, my condition has remained static, no better no worse.  Not a necessarily bad thing, but no better prognosis from an inevitable valve replacement perspective.  So I put my mantra to the test.  Some time ago I decided to focus myself on visualizing my valve “healing” itself.  I spent time in a meditative state, keeping in mind that I have really no idea what I am doing, but again, this is the beauty of my mantra… accounting for the unknown condition, in this case that I do not ‘know’ how to meditate… but does that matter?  I believe that my minds ability is far more powerful than its perceived inability.  You should be able to see that on some level, personally.  I continued to visualize my valve, something I have never seen before (my own that is) being repaired.  I saw it working properly, closing perfectly in a nice healthy red/pink hue.  So I don’t recall how long I did this, or if it even matters, as the mere suggestion of this should be all that is required to initiate the process. Again as anything is possible, I can say that one single thought of this can instigate the actual physical change.  I mean, no one understands how or why our skin heals, or what part of us “tells” it to do so automatically… it just does it.  To me there is no difference in any part of us… Just a little enhanced programming is all that is needed.  I want you to keep in mind here that I did not spend an inordinate amount of time concentrating on this either. As a matter of fact, I am thinking about it right now, in passing thoughts, as I often do, which again should be enough to restart the condition if in fact a restart is even needed.   I went for my annual check up with my Cardiologist and guess what he said to me… “… Hmmm your valve looks great, in fact it looks to have improved…??? You may never need repair surgery…” Yes he actually said that, and he said it with disbelief in his inflection.  So… on some level, one of 2 possibilities have presented themselves here.  Coincidentally and quite unlikely I might add, my heart’s valve just got better… or the fact that my mantra test actually worked.  Either way, if a simple thought can instigate even a tiny change, maybe we should have LOTS more of these thoughts everyday… Wouldn’t you agree? 🙂 Believe in the power that you don’t understand… everything else is just a limitation.

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Web Hosting “To Go”

Ok, so after a great deal of messing around with WordPress, Joomla, webmin and the like, it came to me (whilst on the throne, as so often these things do) that I should just stop playing and deploy my own hosting service.  Yikes !! is a fav site of mine and a recurring theme from all of the entrepreneurs interviewed there is something along the lines of  “… well I had this spare server laying around, so …blah, blah,blah… and now I am a millionaire.”  So aside from the millionaire part, I mean don’t get me wrong, that would be great, but it is not a requirement for me and my family, I have everything it takes (?) to follow in the foot steps of these other successful entrepreneurs… I am not looking to really do anything new, nor did some of them, I would just like to offer it better, or at worst unique in some way.  Here is a great example, and yes I am revealing a great idea… not a unique one but amazingly no one has done it yet…… great site… but it is just hideous… It could be done MUCH better… on so many fronts… So I am working on that as well… LOL… Anyone want to help on that drop me an email… Seriously! Wow so am I going to make any point here… Yes I am.  I have ‘thusly’ decided to document everything that I am doing and thinking during this process technically and ‘businessly’ as well as it might make for a great blog  AND (run on) for sure I would love to see a complete picture like this RIGHT NOW as I am trying to do this, so instructions or a script that will build everything in 1 execution would be ideal. Hmmm… maybe that is the point of all this, to end up with a ‘turn-key’ web hosting solution and I mean turn-key,  I could brand it and everything… a server offering with all of this but a power button press away from an instant on customer servicing web server…??? We’ll see…  I will probably spend a great deal of my time now on this topic so check back (or don’t), or get the RSS (I think I have that on here???) if you are really into watching this whole thing ‘flesh’ itself out…

So thus far I have played with WordPress (a lot), one of the offerings I wanted to have here would be the LARGEST offering of templates in any 1 place, there are lots of free templates on the web, but not all in 1 place, not even on the site (strange??) in fact they have the least I have seen… So I am talking about hundreds and hundreds of themes available.. the ‘defacto’ deployment repo if you will.  As it stands currently I have a fairly basic outline of a working, but manual (not scripted yet) process for building wordpress on a single physical device (or a pool I would imagine, but that is an entirely different discussion) with any many instances as the server can manage.  That being said, it is not the greatest administration process from a management perspective as well as being totally closed off from any customer interaction with the exception of the wp-admin interface (obviously), but system administration (ya know account creation, file controls, etc…) are all on me (or you).  That sucks. But back to the original point of this opening post, I have the server (2 in fact) so as soon as I get this thing together (meaning usable), I will put it up there for hosting and work through it from there… Stay tuned, I think this is going to be an interesting ride… 🙂

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Old Eyes

What if your cerebellum had eyes, then would you see?

That being said, what will it take for us to see things as they should be.  I would say that in my stating this I am underlying everything I am trying to convey in this one-liner, but… that is human nature.  I would only venture to say this.  We certainly should agree that we are not “doing it right” currently and any continuance in the same direction is simply ignorance “exponentialized.”

There is however a thought that the cerebellum actually had a pair of it’s own eyes @ one point in our evolution that have since withdrawn into our cranium known better today as the pineal gland.  Do we have 2 different brains? Personalities? Unlocked potential? Who knows, but the more important question is, why are we not exhaustively studying this?  Follow me on this for a sec…  Are we really content to just stroll along and not know what is going to happen? I ask this because we, as human beings, are not like this about other topics.  In fact, in some cases, we are obsessed with finding the answer. Lets take money as an example… What good is money when we talk about non-material concepts? Keeping my personal prejudices aside with regard to money… why can’t we encapsulate that  same sick passion for something intangible.  Are we really that lost? Are we really so satisfied with instant gratification that we cannot see anything else now?  Ok I’m done…

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